MSSAT NZ

Notes on Chapter 10

Chapter 10: How a Female got to join Male Survivors

One of the best periods of my life came in the mid 2000's when I joined Male Survivors of Sexual Abuse (MSSAT). Although at this period in my life I was attending Living Waters as a male. I was living mostly outside the Church as  a female.

Attending an all Male Support Group was different for me at the time. I made alot of decisions about my life and who I was. Who I identified as. It was around this time that I legally changed my name to Nicola Ann Redmond. Actually over as period of a couple of years I was able to tell the complete truth about my childhood, although in a cut down 5 minute version. I also made my own DVD about the story of my life.

Although at the time I believed I was suffering from Multiple Personality Disorder, the truth is alot different. I guess the truth is that I role played as a child and I continued to role play as an adult. When I learnt about MPD I simply created a character in my persona who suffered from MPD. I think they now call that DID Dissociative Identity Disorder. 

At the same time I was involved in the Filming of a Documentary which is now called "The Journey of Men". An unfortunate name for a Transgender Movie. 

Transgender Opinions

                                     The Third option

It seems we live in a world where there are two main opinions on Transgender people.

1)- We are evil and full of demons that need to be cast out. Included in this category are those who state that Transgender people don't exist

2)- People who accept LGBTIQ people with open arms

This book presents a 3rd type I guess you can say. A freak of nature raised as a girl for the amusement of a small group of sick pedophiles. So the question on everybodies lips

Am I transgender because I was horrifically sexually abused or - - -

Was I sexually abused because I was trans-gendered

From A Post about detransitioning

Nicola Redmond How to DeTransition: Sunday Mornings I go up to the front of the Church and they Annoint me with Holy Oil and cast out the female spirit that lives inside of me. Men gather around and pray in tounges for the demons to leave. Wednesday Night is the same but they have more time to push me to the ground and pray in tounges even louder to rid me of this eveil female demon. Sometimes a special speaker comes to Church. An expert in deliverence ministries. 
He gets of Word of Knowledge from God about the demon that resides in me. So I have come to the conclusion that in order to retain my sanity I have to leave the Church. I am not leaving God or my concept of a God it's just that the Church seems to zealous to tell me that if I don't change my ways I will burn in hell forever and ever. Amen. Hallelujah!  Glory to God!  

Goodbye Church. Hello God.

Chapter 1: The Beginning

So I was called over next door to play with the other kids and for a while everything was kinda 'normal'. I guess the difference was that Keith (lets use that name) seemed prone to playing in the nude alot and preferred rather odd games. I guess in a book you can't go into detail about what happened so I will try my best to skip over the dark stuff. Needless to say within weeks a few good men joined with our 'play' and added weird ideas about what to role play. Not just cowboys and Injins anymore.

Written too mmuch -head hurts